My To-Do List..

Every exams w/o fail,
I have a sudden surge of wants and desires to be fulfilled.
for some unknown reasons,
a To-Do List will emerge at this period when u had all the time to do it prior to this.
and when the exams period is over,
suddenly the wants dun really seem as pressing.

dun we love to go against the odds in life?

Curiously,
I have absolutely no wants this semester.
I ponder and ponder,
awating some rise of external desires...
may it be a shopping list of xmas gifts, a gd netball game, some social interactions, or a simple getaway...
I'm still pondering.
not that their values have diminished in me,
but they are no longer serve as a motivation means.
I suppose.

Yet I'm still surviving well in my exams preparation
some innate drive that keeps me going.
I guess it's only in the absence of drive that external factors acquire motivational meanings.
that doesn't mean I'm well-prepared for my 5th semestral exam,
in fact I'm still far frm it.

I simply can live with it.