It's puzzling why I receive so much concern when I express my hate for NYE
is nye really a call for celebration?
or am I jus weird?

I'm just being cynical, maybe I'm being bitter
but more likely,
I just dun feel happy on my last day of 2005.

Dun feel sad for me..
it's no big deal, really.
the chances of being sad or happy is just 50-50
and NYE being any other 364 day
I just happen to be not happy.

I've got plenty of choices
not that I'm popular
but I guess more pple just rouses the expected-mood better.

Sentosa Foam Party with d C3 pple
Clubbing with Sonic Bin n some peeps
A fireworks date w my best fren
An outing w my son
Pick up the phone and call someone
A movie outing w my parents
.
.

Dunno why I just can't make up my mind
maybe if it had been some other years
I would jumped at every opportunity to get into a party
but today...
I just wonder.

I wanna make sure I start my new yr on the right foot
and I really wanna be happy.

really.

(maybe there'll be a twist of fate in my plans later in the day.
maybe.)