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On my way to the library jus now, I decided to stop over at Gecko for a quick breakie. Midway through my baked pasta and a cup of choco frosted mocha, D walked past and decided to sit down for a chat. I've never known D personally. Our past interactions stopped short at occasional 'obligational-chats' during team trainings or friendly acknowledgments in our social circle. In fact, I don't recall we ever had a private conversation, just between the 2 of us. Hence, I thought it was really nice & sweet (plus an element of surprise), that she felt comfortable enough to sit herself down, given the option of a gesturing-wave and walking away. Given my nature, I would have chose the latter. And that would have affected the turn-out of events, wouldn't it? (Yes, I can't help feeling a little ashame of myself comparatively.)

I'm taken aback at the amount of exchange we had over the brief moments we had in time. Most importantly, it was the ease of flow and sincerity I felt towards our conversation that sends this sense of fuzziness in me. It's weirdly amazing, isn't it? The pple that u can connect with given the 'right' place and time. It's almost serendipitous. smile.

What did we talk abt?
From sprain ankles & sensei to childhood friends & secondary sch days
From netball in all possible domains & those-were-the-days to hall life & university today
...

Speechless. Wow. I think the amount of information I'v learnt from the brief 20+mins beat the 5yr I've 'known' her. (I think we were first acquainted in 2001/2.) I like the smile she had while conversing, I like the sincerity in her eyes when listening. I didn't have to apply my skills of socialization while struggling for new topics in mind. I didn't have to crack jokes or force a laugh in face of awkardard silences. I didn't have to conjure lame excuses to take my leave. I'm convinced I'm knowing D for the 1st time, with depth and perspective.

Every unique interaction between 2 persons mould the nature of relationship between them. It would haven been different if she was the one having breakie and I was the passer-by, or she had decided to wave me goodbye. I'm glad it turned out otherwise. Maybe I'll now think twice upon seeing a familiar face the next time. It'll surely take alot of courage to overcome the inertia, especially if I'm not particularly incline. But I'll try to at least stop and think twice.

One last thing, she made a passing comment that I was enjoying life while having my breakfast in solitude. That's one of the most enjoyable thing in life, she said. And it striked me that... yes, I'm indeed enjoying life. Why didn't it even occur to me? More often than not, we get so overwhelmed & lamenting that we fail to appreciate the little blessings in disguise. These mundanities that we dismiss are often the ones we miss most when they are gone. These momentary peace in our envy eyes of others. You can't imgaine the sense of enlightment I felt at that exact moment.

And I told myself, I'm enjoying my life =)

(PS: Do you know that the sight of falling leaves is really memerizing and almost therapetic? Who says s'pore has no autumn? I just caught sight it.)