My 31st paper in NUS.

I had my 1st paper today. Despite this being my 7th semester in NUS, I did get the jitters the night before. Anyway, now that I'm officially in the mdist of my exams, it's only a matter of time before Xmas comes! Yes, I'm that optimmistic.

Dun ask me how's the paper. Not that it was terrible...okay, it was quite bad considering I totally had nothing to write for my compulsory qns. And for the 1st time in my arts exam, I actually had aplenty time ahead, leaving me twirling pen & shaking leg. Did I mention it's worth 40mks? So maybe, it's worse than quite bad. Sigh.
So now I've mentioned all abt my paper when I said not to ask.
Clever me.

Hm.. guess I've mastered the skill of "too-bad, heck!". Do not mistake me as a slacker possessing an ambivalent attitude, cuz I do bloody care for my Hons CAP. After all, I feel like a fool each time I take out the calculator and start manupilating the decimals. Ah-ha! I bet u din know that's how insignificant my efforts are worth. I spend sleepless nights, draining numerous brain cells and putting my body through such stress... all in hope of a 0.01 increase in my CAP at the end of the day. And it's only a glimmer of hope. How justifying I feel. But I know, mulling over the past & conjuring self-frightening thoughts will only do more harm than good. I should be smarter than that, and I think I am.

Yet despite all these whines and cries, I'm still pressing my calculator like the rest. Damn- I'm a conformist. Argh- I can't stand myself.
Anyway, I lied. I dun just wan a 0.01 increase, I wan a 0.15 increase instead. It sounds petty. But trust me, it's extremely difficult, though not impossible. (I dun hold impossible hopes.) But I know I will be happy as long as there's an increase, even a 0.01.
I'm easily contented.

Lastly, really appreciate all my frens who wish me luck for my exams. I always need luck, that's practically how I survived through my years of education. Grateful to those who keep me in prayers, though I'm not religiously affiliated. And of cuz, I wanna wish all my frens best of luck !!!! Though I have limited luck supply, I guess I am fine with sharing & tking turns.

Yes, I crap & blabber alot during exams.
My manifestaton of exam-symptoms.