For once, glad to be proven wrong..

When I have a premonition, I can't helped but be affected by it. That's when u sense my dread and reluctance. I was no mood for fronts & superficiality, neither the energy for smiles or socialising. So pls...pardon my lack of enthusiaism. It is based from a built-up of past experiences, feelings & emotions made to go through. Sorry, this just ain't d right time for me.

Well, my premonition came true during the early night, but at least only for a couple of hrs. Thank god. At least, I'm able to keep myself occupied and looking busy with eating & bbqing, that successfully keeps me away from unwanted business. Most imptly, plant myself admist pple. Camouflage. I'm gd at it.

I'm glad the idea of sabotage came abt, cuz it sorta ignite a sense of familarity. It just struck me how I used to b d one to mastermind but always end up unsupported, & disappointed. That's why I stopped suggesting cuz no one share d same idea of fun as me, they'll rather smthg cleaner, quieter, more mature. This was smthg close to what it used to be, what my frens & I used to agree... The excitement of plotting, scheming, giggling, human contacts basically... At d end of d day, all of us have fun & a gd laff..most imptly, a gd memory to bring back w us. I was drenched...happily.

The walk to d beach was not remarkable, but definitely pleasing. Nothing spectecular, but I enjoy d company of liyana sitting beside me, slapping of waves on d breakwater, grace's engrossed singing, little talks between frens ard me, bits & pieces of silence & listening... simply sitting side-by-side was gd enuff for me. It was a brief but soothing night out.

Played bridge and card games throughout d night, i had fun. Really, that's all I asked for, it's hard to find frens u r comfortable to stay thru d night with. Credit to serene, grace, liyana, shuangru, huilin (though d last 2 fell asleep soon after). I enjoyed my night afterall.

I know when I'm accepted, when to return d favour, most of all, i know who are these pple. Well, I stayed till weights, I'm glad i did.

Slept at 10am with liyana. One great sleep i must say, i dun remember a better one in any other chalet. It's either awkward sharing d bed, too squeezy, afraid to turn for fear of waking up d other, too noisy or totally not at ease. But this was none of those. It says so much jus frm a simple sleep. After lunch, we went back to our bed, as much as we din want to, there was nothing avail at d moment. Then yq came in. I like her when she's in her gd mood, her old self. I can be myself. We can be ourselves. She ate her breakfast then climbed into bed with us. Had some fun too.(sounds misleading, but u know better) I like being myself, when i can tease, exchange some sarcasm, being haughty, being a nuisance yet pple loving me just as usual. Then hl n meixin joined in. If u realised, ease is a v impt feeling to me. It's d only determining factor between d old & new me.

It's nice to revive a childhood, a childhood happiness u thot u have lost for good. Catching, running, screaming, lao ying zhua xiao ji, crocodile, duck goose, blind mice, throwing balls(not netballs at long last)..of cuz there's revenge, hitting, fighting, pain...but...all accompanied with laughter & harmless intentions, all share a common fun & innocence. I miss my childhood, but this was d closest I can get. I'm grateful for this experience to yingqi, huilin, hanna & siti.(I'm not sure if they'r d same person)

How often can u get to share a heartfelt talk w anyone ? How precious can it get when we are able to share our confessions among not 2, 3 or 4, but with 6 pple of d same kind. We must be d same kind, how else can we survive on d same bed thru d afternoon, with some sleeping, some eyes closed, some eyes on d ceiling but all comfortable with each other? D feeling was natural, easing & trusting. Thank you for being willing to listen, not with ur ears, but with ur heart. Thank you.

I gained much much more than I can ever imagined in a sngle day... i revived what I thought to be lost, regained hope in pple i thought has changed for good, relived d experiences I thought to be found only in memories. For once, I'm glad to have come for this chalet, glad to be proven wrong...