Once upon a night...

Once upon a night,
I sit here in solitude.
class95 and peace with me,
its not often I get to meet myself in serenity...

Last night was Starry Starry night,
I'm struck by some new-found insights.
I looked deep into the faces of singing freshmen,
I wondered what goes on behind.

Were they really display of happiness ?
Were they masks of hidden faces ?
How long does it tk to assimiliate into perfect ease, for a company of strangers ?
It does seem a little ridiculous,
or somewhat impossible
for me to express intense emotions given our predicaments.
Maybe there's a difference betw attachments, spirit & bonds.
I think attachments and spirit go far beyond.

I may feel the reluctance at the end of orientation
I may display strong team identity during activities,
but I dun think I would express a sincere smile,
nor feel the adrenaline of emotions
when I sing "If we hold on together".

and I believe holding candles under the starlit sky can be more perfect
(if I were back in tkgs.)

It's not a comparison,
it's never a condemnation.

why the difference ?
spirit and attachments.