back.

momentarily in control.
at least I think so,
and for a long time I hope.

So do not prove me wrong as I gain my foothold
over my life
over my wishes,
over my dreams
my ideals.

I speak of my mind and soul
do not belittle urself
nor undermine my confidence in u.

I am clear
and here I explicity state my wishes...

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I like to lead a life of my own
with no obligations, no committments, no strings attached.
unless u can accept my formlessness,
my unpredictability
I'm not ready for any exclusive relationship.

Or rather,
u r not ready to share an exclusive relationship with me.

So save me the heachaches
save urself the heartaches
save us the hurt and pains.
Do not pursue me for romance,
I have none to give.
However, I have plenty of love
for a beautiful friendship
which I believe is more priceless and everlasting.

So runaway if u do not seek what I seek
for fate will have other plans I believe.

I am a hermit.
I seek inner peace
I love to be in touch with feelings
I believe in the good of everybody.

U may not share the same principles
but do not propagate ur perspective on me
or even be anywhere near me.
I shudder and am disgusted at the thought of it.

Remember that a Cancerian lives within the softness of its hardening.
u are despicable when u force ur way thru.
u know nothing of me when u think u do.

What is my life, my wishes, my dreams, my ideals?
Who is my perfection?

I seek peace, not lazy
I seek love, not promiscuity
I seek harmony, not submissive
I seek thinker, not a cynic
I seek a child, not silly
I seek self-actualisation, not competing
I seek enjoyment, not lavish
I seek generosity, not extravagance
I seek humour, not shallowness
I seek wit, not arrogance
I seek character, not stubborn
I seek freedom, not selfishness
I seek friends, not acquaintances
I seek kindness, not hypocriticism
I seek creativity, not nonsense
I seek opinions, not criticisms

I seek those who know the difference
I seek those who understand what I seek
and not what they see or think
(for what u see is self-conjured and deceiving)
I seek those who seek what I seek.
I seek those who make the world a better place to be.

This is my perfection
but I'm no perfectionist.