emotional melting pot

some jealousy nv go away.
I dun like the word jealousy,
cuz there's no anger nor contempt.
I'll stick to envious.
happy for others,
but a sigh swallowed within.

why the uprise of such feelings?
a dream, an ideal, a perfection conjured by self yet fulfilled by others.

this does not mark the end
the hope lingers...bitterly. quietly. hopefully.

the grass is greener on the other side.
remember?

some indifference stays.
as stubbornly as a mule,
as deeply-rooted as the weeds,
as innate as ur DNA.
my indifference is greatest at my weakest.
remember this.
I'll never admit it again.

some fear arises.
when I'm scared I get disoriented.
I lose my way
I'll put on my protection shield.
However, I'll not
not ever
show my weakness to u.

my fear undergoes metamophosis
indifference is what u get.
call me mean, heartless, cold and unfeeling
just go away and give me my peace.

I dun really give a damn abt it.