how long is my journey?

I have a lifetime waiting ahead of me
though I'm not sure how long it will be.
It may be the next second, 5yrs or even 50 yrs down the road.
For the complacency of mankind, I'll like to assume I'll have at least another 30yrs in my book.
I think that's already a very intimidating estimation, considering I've already lived 21yrs in the blink of an eye.
That means, it'll just take me another blink to send me say good-bye.
Then again, I 'm not even sure if I'll have the time.

(Just a passing thot...
if it's indeed true that pple who departs have the ability to visit their loves to say their last words,
I hope I can do that too.)

Anyway, this is not a depressing post.
Just random thots for a pensive me at 4.29am.
There are some things I wish to accomplish,
to make my stay as meaningful & fulfilled.

I wish to travel
to exotic or uninviting places.
To open my eyes to different continents.
(Europe being currently the top of my list.)
I wish to take up diving,
to experience the realms of the sea
to be a mermaid with fishes dancing ard me.
I wish to try sky-diving,
to come as close to flying.
I wonder how it feels
I wonder what my thots will be
I guess the view must be literally breath-taking.
I wish to be loved
by family and frens close to me.
I know I am
I just hope it will never end.
I wish to mk a difference
to people far or near
that's what my job will be
I'm excited by the endless possibilities.
I wish to be young & vibrant
to lead a life of hope & dreams
to nv concede to the harshness of life even with passing time.
I wish to be happy
to give thanks to my blessings
to be heartened at every beginning
to understand everything is just a matter of perspective.
I wish to be more selfless & forgiving
its an art that's hard to achieve
I think I'm still far from it.

However, I dun wish to be sick & weak.
Yet I dun wanna be ungrateful in terminating my life unnaturally.
Hence, I wish to keep myself sporty & healthy
and hopefully my body will still be strong towards the end of my journey.